It’s no secret 2020 was a miserable year for all. Filled with anxiety, tears, loneliness and uncertainty. Being far away from my family and basically left to fend for myself took a toll on my mental health. I’m not here to tell you all about how many days I’ve cried myself to sleep or how happy I privileged I was to have a job and a roof over my head. Not at all. I’m here to talk about music.
There’s one particular album I have listened to on repeat for a long time and would consider one of the best albums of 2019 (and 2020 soundtrack for sure). I’m talking about Badflower’s debut album OK, I’M SICK.
Badflower formed in 2013, in Los Angeles. After touring Europe in 2015-2016 they started working on their debut album. You could say their music is kind of emo with a modern spin, but that’s what makes it so captivating. Josh Katz, the lead singer and lyricist is not fond of metaphors and is just giving it to you as plain as can be. Raw, emotional, hitting right in the gut.
Ghost is definitely one of those tracks. In an interview with Loudwire, Josh explained the story behind their single, saying:
We actually didn’t choose it as the single, the label did. I was terrified for that song to come out as the first single, just because the content is so heavy. It could’ve gone so many different ways. Even though for me I was writing from a place of truth, When it was written I had just gotten off tour, and I spent the entire tour having panic attacks on stage every night. It was just something that came out of nowhere for reasons that only my therapist can tell you. When that happened, I got home and it was a traumatic experience having to deal with that every single night and I was in a really low place. I was depressed and thinking about self-harm. So I just wrote it. I played out the whole scenario and put it into a song because that’s what writers do, I suppose. I didn’t even know if it was gonna go on the album. I was sorta hesitant to even show it to the rest of my band, But everyone heard it and loved it, and said it might actually be a positive thing to put out in the world. So we did, and it turned out that I was wrong in my skepticism because it was a positive thing.
And if you’re a fan of music videos showing more than a dance sequence or a pool party (no shade), Badflower won’t disappoint either. I highly recommend having a pack of tissues on hand while watching the music video for The Jester. Go on, give it a go!