Badflower – OK, I’M SICK

It’s no secret 2020 was a miserable year for all. Filled with anxiety, tears, loneliness and uncertainty. Being far away from my family and basically left to fend for myself took a toll on my mental health. I’m not here to tell you all about how many days I’ve cried myself to sleep or how happy I privileged I was to have a job and a roof over my head. Not at all. I’m here to talk about music.

There’s one particular album I have listened to on repeat for a long time and would consider one of the best albums of 2019 (and 2020 soundtrack for sure). I’m talking about Badflower’s debut album OK, I’M SICK.

Badflower formed in 2013, in Los Angeles. After touring Europe in 2015-2016 they started working on their debut album. You could say their music is kind of emo with a modern spin, but that’s what makes it so captivating. Josh Katz, the lead singer and lyricist is not fond of metaphors and is just giving it to you as plain as can be. Raw, emotional, hitting right in the gut.

Ghost is definitely one of those tracks. In an interview with Loudwire, Josh explained the story behind their single, saying:

We actually didn’t choose it as the single, the label did. I was terrified for that song to come out as the first single, just because the content is so heavy. It could’ve gone so many different ways. Even though for me I was writing from a place of truth, When it was written I had just gotten off tour, and I spent the entire tour having panic attacks on stage every night. It was just something that came out of nowhere for reasons that only my therapist can tell you. When that happened, I got home and it was a traumatic experience having to deal with that every single night and I was in a really low place. I was depressed and thinking about self-harm. So I just wrote it. I played out the whole scenario and put it into a song because that’s what writers do, I suppose. I didn’t even know if it was gonna go on the album. I was sorta hesitant to even show it to the rest of my band, But everyone heard it and loved it, and said it might actually be a positive thing to put out in the world. So we did, and it turned out that I was wrong in my skepticism because it was a positive thing.

And if you’re a fan of music videos showing more than a dance sequence or a pool party (no shade), Badflower won’t disappoint either. I highly recommend having a pack of tissues on hand while watching the music video for The Jester. Go on, give it a go!

May festivals you don’t want to miss

I don’t have to tell anyone, Covid-19 is a huge thing around the world right now, unless you’ve been living under a rock. I bet I am not the only person, who’s spirit was kind of crushed by the recent event. And as much as I can look in the mirror and say “stay positive” for the billionth time, living alone and being separated from my family, living in a different country, can alter your set of mind quite badly. Don’t worry, I’m hanging in here, just being wee bit melodramatic.

Anyways, let’s talk about music festivals, since everything is moved to next year and gigs we all are waiting for, scheduled for later this year, have still 50/50 shot on actually going ahead. Also, since Summer is definitely cancelled this year, you can sit back, relax (grab that pizza, you know you want it) and enjoy intimate gigs from the convenience of your livingroom/bedroom/bed/tub/wherever you like.

320 Festival

8-10 May 2020

This weekend you can join an amazing event revolving around mental health, created to bring awarness to the importance of mental health and to provide resources for anyone, who needs help. Live performances include artists like Badflower, Echosmith, Chris Martin of Coldplay and Lindsey Stirling, but it’s not all. You can join educational sessions and learn, grow and support others in this difficult time. 100% of net proceeds will be donated to nonprofit partners of 320 Festival.



Five4Five Fest

15-16 May 2020

This one hits close to home, as the brave NHS stuff here in the UK are fighting daily to stop the spread and help as many people as possible to recover from the virus. And as much as we can clap for them every Thursday to show our appreciation, there’s something else we can do.

Five4Five is supporting NHS Charities with just a fiver you can donate during the festival. The rules are simple, 10 bands, 2 days, merch store available on the days of the shows. Two amazing bands, Enter Shikari and Don Broco, are headlining. So spread the word!


Decade wrap-up

It’s 2020, if you haven’t noticed yet and what better way to kick off new year and new decade by writing a totally cliche decade wrap-up post. I know, what you’re all thinking, another one of those weird posts, filled with Spotify links and playlists. I did consider it for a while and then it hit me. I wanted to do something different, reaching the depths of my memory, focusing on the albums that kind of shaped each year of the last decade for me. It doesn’t mean I only listen to one album the whole year, I’m not a freak, but those are just he reminders of how I felt back then.


Linkin Park “A Thousand Suns”


Panic! At the Disco “Vices and Virtues”

The Wombats “The Wombats proudly present… This Modern Glitch”



Two Door Cinema Club “Beacon”


Bring Me The Horizon “Sempiternal”

Kodaline “In A Perfect World”

Tom Odell “Long Way Down”


Bastille “All this bad blood”

Biffy Clyro “Opposites”

Royal Blood “Royal Blood”


Amber Run “5AM”

Sleeping at last “Space”

Bring Me The Horizon “That’s the spirit”

Marilyn Manson “The Pale Emperor”


Biffy Clyro “Ellipsis”

Elliphant “Living Life Golden”


Enter Shikari “The Spark”

Tokio Hotel “Dream Machine”


Mike Shinoda “Post Traumatic”


Bring Me The Horizon “amo”

Badflower “OK, I’M SICK”

I could explain, why each and every album I’ve listed is still very close to my heart, but we would be here until next year, trust me. If you fancy, take a listen, all of the listed albums hold a special place in my heart. And if you fancy sharing your own list, just let me know.